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Sometimes

Duni — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 20:46:14 +0000

Sometimes I wonder what I’m doing here,
where I go or come from; it’s peculiar
for no one asks – or gives a damn
but I care. Ask me and I’ll tell you
how I love each rock and tree
and each smile I see on every child
reminds me (regardless of the sun and stars)
most of all there’s you. You who
haunts my days my nights, lying
awake I think of you. I must not speak
I dare not move. For fear my love
may smother you: kindness I do not crave
keep me alive keep me depraved…
while you are there, there is life
fulfill my desires and I would die.

ALL ABOUT LIFE

Duni — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 20:39:37 +0000

Life is not always what you think, the colors change with your every blink, every relation seems to be so pretty, but don’t forget time too is witty, don’t be too good – there is no place for virtues, everyone around is actually a devil wanting you to lose,
but don’t worry everyone is actually DEAD, in the clothes of glamour and selfishness, everyone is clad; everything changes before you can even realize, your expectations as no one can ever suffice, this is the story of every man, in and on the earth, the heart of each cries – then and after birth, everyday you wince in pain looking at your dreams shatter,
for everyone, but you my dear, this does not matter; until you grow old and then die later,
you understand; than weeps and sobs that child is better,
for though he plays beside your very corpse, he is true-those fake tears that otherwise flow, shall only last for a month or few….

BROKEN…

Duni — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 20:35:47 +0000

This darkness
cold
penetrating
envelopes me
consuming
controlling
destroying me
gone are my dreams
replaced by this twisted, contorted nightmare
the nightmare we call life
where are the promises?
where have they dissapeared?
the promise of happiness…
BROKEN
the promise of realising my dreams…
BROKEN
the promise of sanity
BROKEN
the promise of life
BROKEN

insanity concealed within this flesh
hatred, misery, anguish, grief
ruling over me
forced to live…
not allowed to exist…
there is no purpose
no meaning…no reason
only NIHILITY

this soul torn apart
eviscerated
destroyed
mutilated
ripped open
the will to dream is gone
the will to fight this insanity is gone
i have no choice but to submit
to submit to this nightmare…
to submit to this self-destruction
there is no life
there is no hope
as a meaningless empty shell i exist…
nothing left to feel
there is nothing left to heal…

2 minutes

Duni — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 20:32:22 +0000

In the last two minutes of my life, I will stop staring at the clock, Stop cursing its rapid pace, because am on a holiday, for good, To some far and distant place. In the last two minutes of my life, I beg, to finally feel alive. As death stands at my door,
My grim reaper i will kiss, those I love and who loved I, I will terribly miss
One day, you too, will join me to this freedom, The new life, the new me, subjects of a new kingdom. I leave to come back, i promise to be never gone.
In the last two minutes of my life, In the last two minutes I’d have prayed for earlier, Now, that its answered, I shall take your leave. Stalker, come stalk me, follow me to heaven, Grim Reaper accompany me to our coffin, These last two minutes, i spend with you, These last two minutes, I’ll remember forever.

Each night is the same.

Duni — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 20:25:34 +0000

Black. The darkest night ever dreamed
Rain clouds hurtle across the skies
Grey are the ashes flying in the wind
Reminders of a love that to you is a game…
You wrench yourself free of my paintings
Dripping bloody footprints on the ground
I reach out to touch you to hold you close
only our eyes meet in the blackness
and the darkness swallows us whole…
as you walk back toward the light
and I watch and wait and wait
in the shadows that assault and tear me apart.
I run and run to catch up with you
My silent pleas are all thwarted
as I grope for you in the dark
my eyes are blinded by the flame
as you light a joint and hand me a drag
I’m dragged into the depths of madness
My head swirls, “water, water..” I gasp
And you are gone leaving a cold smile.
The moons mists up among the clouds
Sings to me “come…into my arms”
I rise only to be torn to death
by night creatures lying in wait.
As I lie bleeding the moon hides
behind tumultuous clouds – you whistle
and the claws disappear. I fall……
only to find my pillow soaked in tears.
Asphalt morning storms into my night.

Journey to nothing.

Duni — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 20:20:47 +0000

Slowly, with each passing breath, I keep sinking deeper and deeper, with no real desire, to jump out, For outside awaits greater depths. I feel content, to let this river flow, There is no ocean that awaits it, As it evaporates silently, knowingthat another lies, not far behind. With each inch towards oblivion, the eye inside me begs to sleep, seeking nothing, but time to cease, and Devour anything that is left. The windows however won’t close, Time wishes never to stop, Till these depths are not satisfied, Filling every cell with emptiness’s these breaths get longer, Taking in the winds of nothing, Finally the bottomless pit stops, Complete with nothing, I rise again.

REIGN OF SORROW ……..

Duni — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 20:14:52 +0000

Never will I sleep on the bed of thorns
Never will I the time it was born

Deep down I saw the Holy Borrow
The friars and the bishops prayed for a better tomorrow
From the evil rebel they pray for calm
And to save the world from the clutches of the storm

But it is all in vain, their prayers are hollow
For we live in the Reign Of Sorrow

Last night i died in my dream

Duni — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 20:10:19 +0000

Last night i died in my dream
It was so real, at least thats how it seemed
My heart, it didn’t beat no more
My pain, i didn’t feel it any more
The light in front of my eyes was bright
The timing of all of this seemed so very right.

Now i know, it’s better to die than to live
Now i know, it’s better to be killed than to kill.

For the calmness after the pain
For the silence after the rain
For the night after the day
For the freshness after the decay
Is something that u can feel only after ur dead.

Dead is easier than alive
Death is better than this life.

Now i know, it will be all ok when i die
Now i believe, after my death, far away i’ll fly.

Emptiness will end as soon as this life ends
The road will be clear & straight once i cross all the painful bends.

Amazing is the call of death
Amazing will be the life after death
No one knows when it comes knocking on your door
Now i don’t wish for life anymore.

Am waiting for my death which will come to me
Am waiting for my death, its beautiful i can see.

About Girl

Duni — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 20:08:55 +0000

She has everything but not what she needs
every time i see her cry my heart just bleeds She looks happy or that is what she pretends
from where others start, is where her story ends She is hiding a truth which is causing her pain she listens to her heart, always ignoring her brain She says its been quite some time since she last won she just cant get over him, for her he was the only one She craves for a life which she has dreamt about will she ever stop falling prey to these dreams?, I doubt Show her dreams only if u dare to fulfill those please don’t let her down just when she is so close You may call her foolish, you might think she is insane
but I know that she is standing all alone in the rains Her heart is fragile, her emotions are true her thoughts are pure, her friends are few She has stopped laughing now which is my biggest worry these events of repeated failures are piling up in her diary Now she gets scared even if you show some affection you can’t blame her really, she is doing it for a reason

I just can’t see her like this, you dont know it hurts
I just can’t see her in tears you dont know it disturbs

But there is very little which i can do for her
coz all i have with me is only love for her!!!!!!!!

WHILE THE BRIDGE IS BURNING DOWN

Duni — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 20:03:56 +0000

I stand on this other endDejected – I need not pretend .Does the water tend to weep……..?
A heart that lost its feeling
And words that lost their meaning
A promise – none could keep

This only way that leads to you
I light with fire, without a sound
I drink those tears – I walk away
WHILE THE BRIDGE IS BURNING DOWN

All your thoughts fill up my mind
But not one look I’ll cast behind
I’ll crush these moments’ weak…..
And what was it I asked of you
Nothing more than was my due
But no more will I seek

Rewarded for my gift of love
I get to wear this thorny crown
The smoke has darkened all my dreams
WHILE THE BRIDGE IS BURNING DOWN

The distance now will only grow
What lies beneath no one will know
But will you get your sleep…….?
Those moments that brought us to life
When every part felt so alive
Will they freeze in memories deep?

With shivering hands I bury them
Some obscure corner of the town
I touch my heart – it has turned to stone
WHILE THE BRIDGE IS BURNING DOWN

For all important things you’re free
You’ll never need to answer me
Go – conquer every peak…………
When all you get – you’ll know the cost
That in the bargain what you lost
The heart will solace seek

May be some day you’ll want to meet
You’ll search that bridge – you’ll look around
But we’re parted now for life, my love
YOU DID NOT SEE AND THE BRIDGE BURNED DOWN